Far Away Lover

 

I lay in my bed and think about you
I love you so much I don't know what to do
I feel your warmth at my side
The pain in my heart moves to my eyes
So far away yet always so near
You are the reason I am still here.

I await the times when we can talk
I await the times we can finally hold hands and walk
To feel you for real... so close to me
The happiest person in the world is what you would make me.

Your eyes shine like a million suns
You shine more brightly than anyone
Your smile so sweet can help but make me smile
It stops my world even for a little while
I await the time when my hand is in yours
To hear you say those 3 little words.

There are still no words I can say to describe
My heart it aches and my eyes they cry
But when we talk my heart flies
you always wipe away the tears I cry.

Even thought you aren't here
And I miss you so much my dear
I'll love you forever and ever
I'll always love you my far away lover.

Scare

 

I'm scared of not missing you anymore, I'm scared to live that day.
I'm scared my mind will erase the memory of the day you went away.
I put a lot of trust in you, you said that you were different.
Your intellect was beyond the hood, but I guess not far enough to miss it.

I guess I should've told you that I'm really sensitive, though I try to act like I don't mind, that night I still relive.
I'm ashamed because I know I love you way more than you like me,
and that I cry for you when you're not here so much that I can't see.

This headache just won't go away its been here since you left.
Though loud yet meek, though screaming yet bleak, this loss truly feels like death.
I pray you don't feel these words are a stretch because we've shared limited time,
or that I'm completely insane for tatting your name, assuring I've lost my mind.

Well the truth is that you are for me, and I've known it since we met.
Yeah we fought, loved, broken up, but there's something you just have to get.
I don't want anyone else baby doll, I don't want another man.
I'll build you up and give you my heart to cradle in your hand.

I admit I am attached baby, and dangerously its true.
That I want to offer my body and soul as a sacrifice to you.
I pray you never leave my side though physical I can take,
but mentally please stay awhile and never leave this place.

365 days is the longest fight I feel I've already been beat.
That waiting is indeed the hardest game and I've just succumbed to defeat.
Terell aka my babe that definitely is what you are.
Though unspoken yet chanted, and rough yet romantic, this love was written in the stars.

I don't know what you feel inside, or if this load you can carry.
If once you're out you'll go buck wild or settle down and marry.
I feel we'll be getting to know each other more so here than before,
so open and let me in because it's you that I adore.

The fate of this relationship is exclusively up to you, ill be holding down my end until my biggest dream comes true-
I love you!