I can't remember me....

I don't contemplate the future
I can't recollect the past
Lost in the land of limbo
In a time that may not last

The days now pass before me
In an alternating blur
Confusion reigns within me
For a past thats lost somewhere

I know I am, for I exist
The photographs don't lie
Pictures of a life now lost
But I don't remember why

I see a new life every hour
In a place thats not the same
No hint of recognition
For turmoil is to blame

I write these words upon this page
For others now to see
But don't ask me if I wrote them
As I can't remember me

In the dark with the music on....

In the dark with the music on
i reflect on this life of mine
and the emptiness only your eyes have
that only knows how to b i t ch and whine

and those hands, your beautiful hands
there the only part of you i know
we connected so many times
that i almost savor every blow

and that heart of yours
that refuses to beat
and the hate in your eyes
my only defeat

how the chains you have on me
break into my skin
I'm bleeding, I'm bleeding
but only from within

and even if i were free
id cling just the same to you
these chains don't need to be visible
i know what I'm trained to do

id cry and beg
but in the end i would stay
this weak heart of mine
cant bear to betray

so forever and ever
ill push and ill shove
i promise never to abandon
i wont give up on love!