My One and OnlyWish

1 million miles thats how far you are to me
100 years thats how long since the last time we talk
I cant help but count each day
I cant think of anyone but you every tick of the clock
When will be seeing each other
When can I hear your voice
When can I taste your lips
When will you be mine
I wish I am a fish so that I can swim the ocean to reach you
I wish I am a bird so that I can fly the clouds that seperate me and you
I wish I have the power to to bring you close to me
I wish I have you here beside me

that place

There’s something amiss:

I don’t know where,

but the completeness is lacking…

The soul yearns, yet,

cannot be there;

that much coveted place –

a place I relinquished long ago.

And now is the nothingness

of being and existing.

If life could be relived,

if time rewinds itself,

if fate could be written afresh,

I would have achieved

of which now I am deprived.

Alas! the moving finger continues

to ink on new marks,

on the pages of my life.

And I strive and strife,

against fate:

O! to be myself,

just to be myself.

Where is my love ?

Where is my love
Where is my hope
Where is my reason to live

I’m sorry I had fun moments
I’m sorry I gave you presents
I’m sorry I held your hair back
when you were puking in a sac

I didn’t feel like crying
when you were dying
I know a new start
can be pretty hard

It didn’t work out well for you

Where is my love
Where is my hope
Where is my reason to live

I’m lonely and left over I know
and I’m living by the flow
Yesterday the flow spat me out
that’s life, no doubt.

I didn’t feel like crying
when you were dying
I know a new start
can be pretty hard

and we don’t always survive that

I’m lonely and left over now
I’m solitary but I don’t wanna be
I’m lonely and left over

I’m all alone and I’m tired of it

Where is my love
Where is my hope
Where is my reason to live.

Don’t leave me

Don’t leave me here,
I’m begging you to take me with you!
I can’t stand this solitary darkness,
I’m lost in a world of shadows.
They have no warmth,
No tender embrace.
Just cold clutches and silent glances.

Don’t leave me here,
I’m begging you to talk to me!
I can’t bear to listen to the pulse of my blood,
The tapping of my heart on my chest.
I’m only alive enough to breathe,
But dead enough to be numb.
It’s just enough to remember
I’m empty, hollow and scared.

Don’t leave me here,
I’m begging you to love me!
I can’t cry until you’re here,
Until you tell me I’m real enough to cry. .
I don’t deserve the satisfaction of
Justification of my own faults.
I’m guilty of more than you know.
But don’t leave me with these
Flaws, they intensify
They magnify with loneliness.

Don’t leave me here,
I’m begging you to save me!
I just want you to hold me,
To rock me until the shadows fall away.
To pet my hair and calm my heart,
Tell me i’m not perfect
and i don’t have to be.
Tell me i’m lovely.
Tell me my fears are shallow
and have no root.
and tell me you won’t leave me.

Tell me you won’t leave me.
Tell me you won’t learn to hate me,
As i have.
Tell me you won’t desert me,
As others have.
Tell me i don’t have to be lonely.

I wanna be with you

I can`t sleep and I`m up all night
Through these tears I try to smile
I know the touch of your hand
Can save my life


I can`t go on
I just wanna be with you...

You Were Only Made For Me

I can't take this anymore
what is the point?
everytime a get close to you
you walk away and take no blame

its all your fault a feel this way
there's nothing left to do or say
i loved you with all my heart
but you just tore me apart

ive never felt this way
every about someone
i just feel like walking
and taking the gun

put it striaght to my head
hopefully end up dead
but im not letting you win
this is all just a sin

you've taken my soul
but soon again a will be whole
to love my life once more
i can now walk out the door

i'll just put you in the past
i should of known it wouldn't last
but at least now im free
i can live life happily ...

You really mean d world 2 me

You really mean d world 2 me
I askd myself,hw culd tis be?
I really love U wit all my heart til now!
I dread d moments V r apart
U r der 4 me, thru good n bad
U r my evrythin; U r all I hav
I hope U noticd, d way I feel
I hope U noticed, tat these feelins 4 U r real
Wenevr I see U comin up online,I feel so secure
I had a hope tat our love will endure forever
I reveald my true love to U
Nd I thought evn U reveald d same love as I did..But?
I think abt U day aftr day
I really love U,wt more can I say?
Em glad U came in 2 my life
Em glad tat I feel tis all d tym I think abt U way inside
I’ll end tis poem wit an "I Love You" 4 one last tym,
As I Don't wnt 2 hurt U by sayin so,
Please believe, my love 4 U is true
I still hope V really r meant 2 be
And I still believe U know,
"YOU are the world to me!"

What should i do? what can i say?

What should i do? what can i say?
I love you so much, but I've got to go away

you think its so easy being with you, i think I'm teasing him, oh what should i do?

i want to be with you for the rest of our lifes. i want to be there, i want to be your Valentine

i want you to love me i want you to care, i want you to hold me,


.. and tell me you'll always be there.

Now I've realisd tat em alone

Now I've realisd tat em alone

At first I thought em not alone,

coz I once had love tat I used 2 cry on.
Bt it also jus passd away & left me alone in tis planet,

All d problms I hav,I fight it on my own
I cry wit no1 to care 4 me.

D world jus luks & pass by
Thn 2 stop & ask Y I cry,

Em breathin d air tat is filld wit evil

De mre I breath,d mre its grow inside me

And nothin I can do since em alone

Nw bein kind I see is nt good
Ppl turn 2 hate fo d gud things U do.

I sleep cryin nt knowin how ll b 2moro

Mayb I might smile or continue crying,

Nw I hav learnt hw life is all about!

U've born alone 2 face a life to struggle,

Wen U get oldr U get mre foes than frnds

Den Ur bst frnds turn to b Ur bst enemies

I kno tat Em alone,it's me,myself & nobody else

And I will b ALONE till d death of mine

If we all are alone, Then we are all together in that too!

I love everything about u

I love everything about u
And I love u the most

I love the way u smile
And the way u dry
My tears when I cry

I love the way u let me listen
To your heart beating

And the way u tell me
Itâ??s for me who u living

I love the way u hurt me
And always come back
To say please forgive me

I love u for being
Who u r in front of me

And for not trying
To impress me

I love every word u say
And I love u in every way

I love u
Not because u love me too

I love u
Because your love is true

I Am Not Mad, I am In Love....

I can't explain why I feel this way,
Every time you would come my way

I always tremble, feeling nervous,
It's like I wanna fall down unconscious.

I don't know what so special about you
That made me fall in love with you.

Maybe that cute face of yours,
Your smiles and ways, yes of course

Every time you're by my side
I'd like to stretch my hands open wide

And embrace you tight endlessly
But I can't coz you might turn away from me.

But what can I do,
If this is what I feel for you

Can you blame me, if I have fallen
Madly in LOVE to you my Darling.

Would I Ever love Again?

In the dark with the music on
i reflect on this life of mine
and the emptiness only your eyes have
that only knows how to b i t ch and whine

and those hands, your beautiful hands
there the only part of you i know
we connected so many times
that i almost savor every blow

and that heart of yours
that refuses to beat
and the hate in your eyes
my only defeat

how the chains you have on me
break into my skin
I'm bleeding, I'm bleeding
but only from within

and even if i were free
id cling just the same to you
these chains don't need to be visible
i know what I'm trained to do

id cry and beg
but in the end i would stay
this weak heart of mine
cant bear to betray

so forever and ever
ill push and ill shove
i promise never to abandon
i wont give up on love!

Why do you hurt me?

Why do you hurt me?
Do you like seeing me cry?
How can you just walk away?
When you know I'm dying inside!

How can you drag me,
Through this heartache and all this pain?
You know everything about her,
But do you even know my name?

Do you know how much I love you?
Do you even really care?
How can you let me love you?
Why are you so unfair?

Why won't you let me move on?
Let me be happy once again?
You want me in your life I know,
But I want to be more than just your friend!

Baby, just let me go!
I don't even me a thing.
But I don't want you to let me go!
I love you... Can't you see?

Still Waiting

The leaves turned to gold,
The sunlight turned to rain.
The lake turned to ice.
And all the ducks flew south.
Season turned to season
All the same, I will keep waiting.

Throngs of people turned to empty fields.
Shocking headlines turned to yesterday’s news.
Best new artists turned shriveled and gray.
And my used batteries died.
Season turned to season
All the same, I will keep waiting.

Hot new fads turned to moth-eaten tatters.
A fourth reign floundered in its ashes.
Peace turned to war and war to peace.
And weapons became shields.
Season turned to season
All the same, I will keep waiting.

Your desire turned to my memory.
The locks haven’t been changed.
My key became old and rusty.
And the wood decayed away.
Season turned to season
All the same, I will keep waiting.

Your picture is now faded.
Everything is in black and white.
Our hiding place in the tree is bare.
The lake is now a pond,
And no ducks come to fill it.
Season gives way to season.
All the same, I’m still waiting.

I didn’t chase you then;
I won’t you chase you now.
You’re on your own.
I’m here at home.
Season gives way to season.
All the same, I’m still waiting.

You can’t take forever.
You’ll come home in time.
I won’t chase you.
I’m still just waiting.

Love Hurts

I know I’m selfish
But I want your love
I don’t want her
Getting all your love
I’ve fallen for you
And dear god, it hurts

I want to be the one
To make you smile
To make you laugh
But no matter what
I just can’t seem to
And dear god, it hurts

I want you to be happy
But I don’t want her
To be the reason
Of your happiness…
It should be me, yet its not
And dear god, it hurts.

I love you with all
That I am, all of my heart
You are all that I can think of
You are all that I want
But you want someone else
And dear god, it hurts…

When you walked out of my life

When you walked out of my life
I realized that my hands were empty once more!

Was it the most beautiful sunset of my life?
When time paused and moved at its slowest pace
When every inch of the sun sinking into the sea
And every trickling moment of time
Stopped to admire our togetherness
When you walked out of my life
I realized even the sunset had lost its grace

Was it the most hearty smile i ever gave?
The happiest moment i ever lived?
And with the same joy and excitement,
When you blushed redder than the sun
The very charming smile that i received
When you walked out of my life
I realized that happiness was something i never believed ..

I Wish You Felt My Love...

I wish you would know how i feel about you,
i wish you could see and feel my love i have for you.

i wish i didn't have to tell ot to you because its not the same,
i wish you understand the love i have for you without me telling it to you.

The words can't say it the way i wanted to tell,
the words can't show how i feel you in my heart.

I wish i didn't have to say it in words,
its just more difficult to do so.

i just can't find those right words
that will describe the love i have for you.

Those words do not exist
and i wish they never will.

I wish you felt my love to you
without me telling you in words

SmiLiNg Is NoT My ReAliTy

SmiLiNg Is NoT My ReAliTy,

ThIs Is HoW I PrEtEnD To Be,By NiGhT I CrY MySeLf To SlEeP,WiD My GoD FrOwNiNg At Me,

DrOwnInG In A FlOoD Of TeArS,BuT TeArs Are My DeStInY,

My ViSiOn A BlUr As I FuLLFiLL,

AnD ThIs Is HoW I MeAnT To Be,

My LiFe UnWoRthY,My SelF To KiLL,ExIsTeNcE A ToRtUrE I MuSt EnDurE,

As U RegArDeD SuiCiDe As SiN,I M NoT AgAiNsT U My HeArt Is PuRe,

FaTe Is MoCkInG WiTh An EviL GriN,SuRrOuNDeD In A BlAcK NeSs So DeEp,

I WaLk,I SeE But SuRvIvE No MoRe,

I M DeAd InSiDe,In DaRkNeSs WeEp,

YoU KnoW I LoVe U,LIkE EvEr BeFoRe,

FoRgIvE Me As In My GrAvE I LaY,

FrEe Me oF ThiS PaIn AnD LeT Me DiE,I JuSt CaNT BaRe It AnY MoRe:'(

To the one i loved…

Once more time, again and again
Am hurt inside, left alone
Dying slowly with my soul
But it’s not something new to me
I’ve got used to a broken heart inside.

I run in the rain
So, no one would see my tears
I turn on the music so loud
So, no one would hear my screams

I’ve been trying so hard not to,
Show you my pain,
That i kept locked inside
Stucked on my own.

You’re not the one to blame
Maybe my screams just were not so high,
To reach you…

And now i only wish a simple thing
If you could hear my silnet scream
That’s calling you back to me,
To melt my frozen heart…

Killing Me

Your killing me
Your ripping me apart
You walked into my life one day
and now I know nothing but pain
I tryed so hard not to let you in
your good looks was the start
of our terrible sin
I could take this razor and
cut you out
but your here so deep in my heart
my soul has withered
from all our pain
there is no peace for me
my tears have all dried up
there is no sleep
there is no escape for me
from the evil that is you
I wish you would
just leave me alone
take your pain and go
let me find the pieces
of my life
that you have scattered everywhere
the pieces that were once me.

I miss you so badly

Love was all that I needed to live
And I found it there in your heart
But I lost it in a haze of events
For you left me without a word
In a world with all but compassion
I tried so hard not to cry
Because I knew you hated to see me cry
But the pain my soul was enduring was overwhelming
For it had lost its heart
I miss you
I miss you so badly
I hope I will see you again one day
I know it will be in heaven
A beautiful place full of hope and dreams
But until then
Everyday I think of you
And the day you slipped away from me
That day was the day I knew my life had changed forever
The only thing that soothes my soul
Is when I talk to you within my mind
Hoping that you can hear me
The only thing I heard from the day you slipped away from me
Was the sound of my howling soul
It has been in pain
For its heart was ripped away from it
To this day do I hear my howling soul
All I can do is pray that the day I fly to heaven

I am happy that she had found someone special to her

Some time in my life, I met a girl of my age. At first, I only know her as a reject-all because no one had ever succeeded in making her his girlfriend.Shes alright when I got to know her. Friendly and reliable. After one year, she became one of my best friends. I shared a lot of problems with her, mostly social and love problems. We shared an oath that we will never like each other more than just a friend, as to keep friendship strong.I always disturb her with the fact that she is single, by saying that shes unwanted. And I promised her that I will definitely get married earlier than her. And then few months passed by, she accepted a honest and sincere guy as a boyfriend, or at least thats how she described it.At that time, I was devastated by the fact that I would most probably be distanced from her as she would give her boyfriend more priority. Well, I didnt see the boyfriend thing coming into our friendship. I dreamt about it coming, and few days later she admitted it. Coincidence?There was a very throbbing pain in my chest that I had lost a best friend, a good counselor,a cure for boredom. But at the same time, I am happy that she had found someone special to her.

How Much I Love U Nobody Knows

Nobody knows its empty
this smile that i wear...
the real one is left in the past
because u hav left me there...♥!!♥

Nobody knows i m crying
they wont see even my tears...
when they think thai i m laughing
i still wishing u were here... ♥!!♥

Nobody knows it's painful
they think that i m strong...
they say that this wont kil me
but i wander if they were wrong... ♥!!♥

Nobody knows i m praying
that u will change my mind...
they think that i let u go
when u left me behind... ♥!!♥

Nobody knows i miss u
they think i feel set free...
but i feel like i m bound with chains
trapeed in the mystery... ♥!!♥


Nobody knows i need u
they say that i can do it my own...
but" they dont know i m crying
"when i m aloneeeee....♥!!♥

You know what\'s sad about LOVE??

it's when you happen to know that there is just no hope for you being together yet you still pray to make it work..it's when your mine says let go but your heat say hold on...it's when you dream about that person almost every night only to wake up in the morning with tears in your eyes...and most of all, it's when not matter how you try to forget that person,damn!.. you just can't!....because of the fact that you still love that person and you don't know why....

A love forever !

As I look at the stars at night
And dream of what is to be...
My heart begins to smile
For it's you I see

You're the one who makes me laugh
When things are looking bad
You're the one who makes me smile
When I am feeling sad
You're the only one for me
you brighten up my day
You're the sunshine of my life
you chase dark clouds away.

I think of you each day
my mind is set on you
You bring the best in me
with the sweet things you do.

Sweetheart, this love for you is true
And know forever I will Love You.

All Because of U

Because of you,
I believe in me.
You have brought,
A light into my life.

Because of you,
My heart no longer aches.
You taught me how to love,
And to be loved.

Because of you,
I am no longer scared.
I feel brand new each day,
As I go through each hour.

Because of you,
I have no doubts.
Your love guides me,
In all I go through.

Because of you,
My soul is at peace.
I found in you,
What has been missing.

Because of you,
I am in love.
In love with a girl,
That believes in me....

As Love runs deeper...

My love for you runs deeper then the sea

No place on earth I'd rather be

In your arms is where I belong

My heart my desires passions so strong

To be with you my love sharing moments

Endless in time gentle calm as the ocean

Filled with mysteries and emotions

Captivating my every senses and notions

The treasures of love so genuine

Is what sweetheart in you I have found

I am your best friend, lover all you need

For you I will be in all the love I feel

You are my dream come true

To weather the stormy skies, grey or blue

A piece of heaven on earth

Gifts and treasures I will forever cherish

I love you Sweetheart

From the bottom of my heart

Why Do I Still Love You ?

I Cant Get You out of My head

No Matter how i try

I Still love You

Even when you make me Cry,

I want You in my Arms

I want you to be Mine

But You don’t want me Now

You says it’s Not our Time,

Relationships are hard Enough

But love makes them even Worse

Love Makes it hard to give Up

Love is a curse,

I Hate the fact I love You

And that i cant Get You out of My Mind

I hate that every time i think of You

My heart flutters and My eyes Cry,

I don’t understand how you do this to Me

How You make Me want to Die

How I dream about you Every Night,

I ‘d rather Cry and mope and Whine

Than call You to get things Straight

Because somewhere in my Heart

I know Its already Too Late ...!!